Senin, 14 Maret 2011

Shirley

Shirley was a beautiful woman of England. Yet, she was not young anymore she was 42 year old already. She lived in Liverpool, the city where she was born.

One summer, her best friend, Jane invited her to go to holiday in Greece. She never goes to Greece, she was curious about that country, so she decided to join with Jane in Holiday.

In the Greece they stayed in a hotel near the beach. There, they welcomed by a friendly man named Costas. He was the manager of the hotel. One evening Shirley went to the bar for some beverage, she found Costas stood there and they begun a conversation.

“You know, I have a boat located near this beach. Actually it belongs to my brother, but if you want, we can go for a ride tomorrow. What do you think?” said The man to her.

“Wow, it would be nice,” she accepted the invitation and she went with him next day. They enjoyed their trip very much, especially Shirley who never sails with a boat.

Actually, Shirley likes the sights of Greece, so after the first trip, she went out with the manager of hotel every day. As usual they swam, sunbathed and spent much time together in the sea. They enjoyed it very much.

The end of holiday came, Shirley had to go back. She was in Airport already but, suddenly she decided to not to go home to Liverpool, her home town. She thought, she wanted to stay in Greece. Then, this girl left the airport and went back directly to the hotel where Costas as the manager.

When she had arrived she saw Costas in the bar with a woman and she decided to hear their conversation.

“Would you like to go for a ride in my brother’s boat?” said costas inviting the woman. But, Shirley didn’t care about that and she came nearer to them.

Costas was shocked when he found Shirley standing beside him and the woman. He was extremely surprise, He got she smiled at him. Costas thought Shirley would angry with him but, she only told her purpose that she was looking for a job in his hotel.

Shirley was not angry when she knew the fact that Costas was a playboy, because She was not in love with that man but, she fallen in love with the Greece and the sea sights of it.

Minggu, 13 Maret 2011

Different

How are we so “different”?
If “different” is just a thing.
If we all have certain features,
What does “different” bring?

People filled with hatred,
Can’t possibly see,
That there’s not really “differences”
Between you and me.

Looks can’t show “difference”,
If they’re just there to be seen.
If you don’t look like someone else,
Why are they so mean?

If being “different” is what is wrong,
I’d rather not be right.
And I’d want to finish living,
Doing the “different” fight.

INSOMNIA

I never thought that I’d fall in love, love, love, love
But it grew from a simple crush, crush, crush, crush
Being without you girl, I was all messed up, up, up, up
When you walked out, said that you’d had enough-nough-nough-nough
Been a fool, girl I know
Didn’t expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time, you’ll change your mind
Now looking back i wish i could rewind
Because i can’t sleep til you’re next to me
No i can’t live without you no more
Oh i stay up til you’re next to me
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia


Remember telling my boys that I’d never fall in love, love, love, love
You used to think I’d never find a girl I could trust, trust, trust, trust
And then you walked into my life and it was all about us, us, us, us
But now I’m sitting here thinking I messed the whole thing up, up, up, up
Been a fool (fool), girl I know (know)
Didn’t expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time (time), you’ll change your mind (mind)
Now looking back i wish i could rewind
Because i can’t sleep til you’re next to me
No i can’t live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh i stay up til you’re next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before (Because it)
Feels like insomnia
Ah, i just can’t go to sleep
Cause it feels like I’ve fallen for you
It’s getting way too deep
And i know that it’s love because
I can’t sleep til you’re next to me
No i can’t live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh i stay up til you’re next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia

Shadows Of Heart

I wake up and find,
in lonely times made me killing,
love without hope,
sky in dark heart,
your smile to tear my soul,
I fall in yours,
to chide everyone
where is a reply for me,
while I am laying and fall...
back my heart,
I still could remember how am I without you,
made me in the march of cloud
then I crashes,sink, and drunk cause your touched...
I wish stop my heart, but I hurt, killed, and I am like
my lived is like a dead shadows full nervous and recorded fantasy
why should I love you,
O world of dreams?

I wish I could go back

I wish I could go back
at heart a pearl crack,
find time in the day,
is missing and returned,
anyone come and gone,
I was tormented by the heart and soul,
I wish I could go back
Here work as penance monastery who never completed,
moaned in between the rib pain,
along every fatigue,
This is the monastery without forgiveness,
which will kill whole soul and heal my heart without,
I wish I could go back
I want to be like before,
enjoy the love and kisses,
released without stifling breath,
make me be in heaven who missed
I wish I could go back
now lives in the moment of sadness and tears,
emptiness without boundary,
walking on the arid day,
carved and painted every pebble with blood and tears,
makes me want to end this hermitage ....

I wish I could go back

I wanted to like the old days when exposed ears beautiful intimate whisper from you,
made me fall in love's arms,
enjoy your heart strings,
although only an instant flame,

I wish I could go back

when the candle was extinguished all,
and I just bit my finger hurt themselves.

TO LOVE

I was in the endless my solitude space,
Miserable and moaning at every track of time,
Where I found longing?
Or a heart left to freeze,
Icebergs into the stone,
Is there a dark soul will be shut,
Imprisoned in the heart of bitterness,
Why are you scatter plot romance until I stumbled and fell in love with folded arms?
The love that makes me hurt and cried for days without stopping,
Love that imprison me in a full range of punishment of time,
I love the peel with a sharp razor nicks,
The love that makes me drunk and destroyed, then pain, and torture in the cramped space and quiet.
Love that never ends. end and I started to hurt and after injury,
It is love that makes me drowning in a toxic storm,
Love the moaning in the sinking sun and the dark torment,
Auhhhh ... ...! I slumped, staring at empty space always
Looked at me full of humble, full of weeping and crying,
Is sick of me love stoned to death in a cruel punishment!

ABOO’S LESSON

“Did you remember to say the traveller’s du’a back there, son?” Aboo(1 asked. I just nodded. Through the windows, my eyes savoured the view. I could never get tired of watching the beautiful scenery of the Highlands of Kenya surrounding our city. We could go miles in the shadow of the green forests, then suddenly out in the open, passing a savanna. Sometimes I could vaguely smell the pleasant scent of eucalyptus plants, and sometimes see valleys stretching below us. Not far from Nairobi the capital, which was called ‘a place of cool waters’ in the old days, patches of tea plantation rolled out like carpet.

Namalu, Uganda. That was our destination, at least three days driving from Nairobi, where we started. It was my first time going on a long trip, and this particular one was no picnic.

“I wonder if it’s gonna be there, Mzee(2,” Ali, Aboo’s assistant, suddenly spoke, “they promised one would meet us halfway between Namalu and the border.” Aboo just nodded slightly, then, sensing my confusion, he explained, “I asked for a tractor to accompany us, in case we get stuck in the mud or something. It’s in the contract.” I nodded, then again looked out to enjoy the view. But then a thought crossed my mind so I asked,
“Aboo, how bad is the journey in Uganda?”
“You mean besides the road blocks, the thick and sticky mud and puddles in the roads, the bandits, and the landmines? Well, there’s always civil war, you know.”

I took a deep breath. Civil war. Yes, for it was 1981, and the civil war was the reason we headed out there; to deliver the aviation fuel Uganda needed for relief flights by an aid agency helping the refugees of war.

Aboo swerved a little to avoid a puddle and, with his eyes still on the road, asked,
“Have you been saying du’a, Aboo(3?”
“Um .... nnno, Aboo. Which du’a?”
“We could sure use ayatul kursi right now.”

I didn’t say anything, but started reciting the ayatul kursi in my heart. A flock of bright, pink flamingos flew in the sky. They were headed south from Lake Nakuru. I also caught a glimpse of a hippo, a bit further among the woods on the side of the road. There were quite a number of soda lakes around this region, a haven for hippos and many kinds of birds, especially flamingos, making it a paradise for birdwatchers. I turned my head left to look at Ali, and noticed that his lips were moving slightly. He, too, was saying du’as.

After we passed Nakuru, I got drowsy from looking out, and from reciting more than a hundred of ayatul kursis. When we finally stopped for lunch and salah, I asked Aboo, “Shouldn’t we recite something longer later?”
“Like what? What do you have in mind?”
“Well, how about Yaseen?” I say, shrugging my shoulder a bit.
Yaseen was about the longest surah I’d memorized. It surely would keep me awake. A warm smile came on my father’s face.
“It’s good, but for me ayatul kursi will do.”
“Why?” Surely Aboo knew Yaseen by heart, too. And the longer the surah, should be the better, right?
Aboo smiled and said, “Because the ayah says, ‘All things in the heavens and on earth belong to Him’, and that means us included. On the road, that is what we always have to bear in mind, in order to give up our lives to Him and Him only. We can’t really rely on people, you know. But we can always rely on Allah, for He is always there, never sleeps, never feels tired, and like the ayah also says, knows everything about everything. ‘He’s the ruler of heavens and earth’, ain’t He? So, we should keep reciting the ayah to keep ourselves tawakkal. If I should recite a long surah like Yaseen, I’d probably concentrate more on the surah, what the next ayah will be, instead of trusting Him wholeheartedly.”

Just then, we were stopped by a roadblock. Aboo and Ali went down to meet the policemen. I panicked, and found myself reciting the ayatul kursi furiously. I was scared we were going to meet some problems. Police corruption was not a strange thing, either in Kenya or Uganda, and I knew we had no money. But it was shameful for a big teenager like me to cry, so, scared as I was, I resorted to the ayah kursi. Fortunately, they soon came back, and not long after we resumed the journey.

I realized then and there, how powerless I was. If police and corruption could scare me that much, I couldn’t imagine how much the landmines, robbers, or battles would affect me. I decided to keep reciting the ayatul kursi, and see how tawakkal I could get.

Two days later, we passed the border. My heart throbbed from the sensation. Here I come, Uganda, the Pearl of Africa! People had been telling me how beautiful Uganda was, even more beautiful, though a bit less developed because of the war, than Kenya. Now, I could see it for myself.

Cool, invigorating breeze welcomed us through the window, for it was right after Shubuh time. On my right side, Mount Elgon, an extinct volcano, towered 4000 m above us. With the help of the still rising sun, I could see caves doting its slopes. I had heard that elephants often went there, feeding on the salt found in the caves, which make Mt Elgon the only place in the world where elephants would go underground. But I guess it was too early for the day, for I could see no elephant in sight.

Despite of the magnificent view, I could feel the tension rising. There were robbers in Kenya, but there were many more in Uganda. And we would continue to meet roadblocks, and the rain and puddles were so much worse, that we started needing the tractor, badly. We were also worried we might encounter a fight between the two warring groups. But for me, the scariest of all was the landmines. Every time we passed a mined area, Aboo would drive very quickly, many times passed the speed limit. His theory was, if we drove quickly enough, even if we went over a mine, we could escape the explosion. But with drums of kerosene loaded on our truck, it was a fat chance. The blast might catch on the kerosene, or, we might even get an accident from driving too fast, and get blown up anyway.

All the dangers we had were so real, and still no tractor in sight, I did feel myself closer to God. Even the lush, rich green forest enshrouding us as we went around Mt Elgon, as beautiful as I had imagined, ceased to comfort me. One thing always followed directly after another that I found myself continuously reciting the ayah kursi, each time getting more sincere than before.

Finally, we were only a few miles from Namalu, our destination. Right after I spotted a housing compound on Namalu suburb, Ali shouted, “There it is!! The tractor!” Sure enough, we saw a tractor going behind us.
“Well, what do you know, right in time...,” I said cynically.
“At least we have something,” Aboo calmly said.
“Yeah, now we’re saved!” Ali exclaimed, giving his own thigh a slap of joy.

As soon as Ali said the word ‘saved’, KERR-SPLASH! Down went the truck into a deep puddle. Aboo put on the gas, but the truck didn’t budge. Ali got out to fetch the tractor to pull us out. Hours passed, with no improvement. Aboo then decided, “There’s no other way. We have to roll the drums one by one all the way to Namalu.”

And there we were. Stranded, with a distance of only about five to ten minutes driving to our destination. But we couldn’t drive there, so we walked, rolling the drums one by one, all the way. They were all such huge drums, that it took all three of us plus the tractor driver to get each one out. And only after all the drums had been hauled to the ground, could the tractor pull the truck out. Even then, it was no easy task. The deep puddle made the truck keep slipping and swaying, many times almost roll to the ground. I had never had one day half as tiring as that particular day, and I could swear neither had Aboo nor Ali.

That night, after prayer when we lay down in bed, relieved but exhausted, I told Aboo, “I guess that’s the irony of life. With all the danger we faced along the way, we were okay. And just as we almost arrived, calamity caught us unawares.”

Aboo looked straight at me, his face sober, and said, “Istighfar, Aboo. You want to know the reason we got stuck? Because we relied on people and things. Remember along the way, we kept reciting the ayatul kursi? We were relying on Allah for help, so Allah helped us. But then, just because we saw the tractor, we forgot Allah and started relying on the tractor instead. And the tractor couldn’t pull us out! Even without the drums it was difficult. That was actually Allah’s way of showing us, what’s the price of relying on something other than He, the Greatest. Never, ever, fail to rely on Allah, and only Allah. To do otherwise will always be futile. Let that be a lesson for you, Aboo.”

It was indeed a lesson, and wallahi, did we learn it the hard way....


(1 Aboo [‘AA-bow] = Father, in Somali, from Arabic Abu.

(2 Mzee = an address of respect in Swahili (a common language in Kenya and the neighbouring countries), more or less like ‘Sheikh’ in Arabic, or probably ‘Sir’ in English.

(3 Aboo = though literally means father, in East African countries, as well as South Asian and middle eastern countries, it is also used by a father to address his son/daughter, as a term of endearment.
by: Desti J Basuki