INSOMNIA

I never thought that I’d fall in love, love, love, love
But it grew from a simple crush, crush, crush, crush
Being without you girl, I was all messed up, up, up, up
When you walked out, said that you’d had enough-nough-nough-nough
Been a fool, girl I know
Didn’t expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time, you’ll change your mind
Now looking back i wish i could rewind
Because i can’t sleep til you’re next to me
No i can’t live without you no more
Oh i stay up til you’re next to me
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia


Remember telling my boys that I’d never fall in love, love, love, love
You used to think I’d never find a girl I could trust, trust, trust, trust
And then you walked into my life and it was all about us, us, us, us
But now I’m sitting here thinking I messed the whole thing up, up, up, up
Been a fool (fool), girl I know (know)
Didn’t expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time (time), you’ll change your mind (mind)
Now looking back i wish i could rewind
Because i can’t sleep til you’re next to me
No i can’t live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh i stay up til you’re next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before (Because it)
Feels like insomnia
Ah, i just can’t go to sleep
Cause it feels like I’ve fallen for you
It’s getting way too deep
And i know that it’s love because
I can’t sleep til you’re next to me
No i can’t live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh i stay up til you’re next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia

Shadows Of Heart

I wake up and find,
in lonely times made me killing,
love without hope,
sky in dark heart,
your smile to tear my soul,
I fall in yours,
to chide everyone
where is a reply for me,
while I am laying and fall...
back my heart,
I still could remember how am I without you,
made me in the march of cloud
then I crashes,sink, and drunk cause your touched...
I wish stop my heart, but I hurt, killed, and I am like
my lived is like a dead shadows full nervous and recorded fantasy
why should I love you,
O world of dreams?

I wish I could go back

I wish I could go back
at heart a pearl crack,
find time in the day,
is missing and returned,
anyone come and gone,
I was tormented by the heart and soul,
I wish I could go back
Here work as penance monastery who never completed,
moaned in between the rib pain,
along every fatigue,
This is the monastery without forgiveness,
which will kill whole soul and heal my heart without,
I wish I could go back
I want to be like before,
enjoy the love and kisses,
released without stifling breath,
make me be in heaven who missed
I wish I could go back
now lives in the moment of sadness and tears,
emptiness without boundary,
walking on the arid day,
carved and painted every pebble with blood and tears,
makes me want to end this hermitage ....

I wish I could go back

I wanted to like the old days when exposed ears beautiful intimate whisper from you,
made me fall in love's arms,
enjoy your heart strings,
although only an instant flame,

I wish I could go back

when the candle was extinguished all,
and I just bit my finger hurt themselves.

TO LOVE

I was in the endless my solitude space,
Miserable and moaning at every track of time,
Where I found longing?
Or a heart left to freeze,
Icebergs into the stone,
Is there a dark soul will be shut,
Imprisoned in the heart of bitterness,
Why are you scatter plot romance until I stumbled and fell in love with folded arms?
The love that makes me hurt and cried for days without stopping,
Love that imprison me in a full range of punishment of time,
I love the peel with a sharp razor nicks,
The love that makes me drunk and destroyed, then pain, and torture in the cramped space and quiet.
Love that never ends. end and I started to hurt and after injury,
It is love that makes me drowning in a toxic storm,
Love the moaning in the sinking sun and the dark torment,
Auhhhh ... ...! I slumped, staring at empty space always
Looked at me full of humble, full of weeping and crying,
Is sick of me love stoned to death in a cruel punishment!

ABOO’S LESSON

“Did you remember to say the traveller’s du’a back there, son?” Aboo(1 asked. I just nodded. Through the windows, my eyes savoured the view. I could never get tired of watching the beautiful scenery of the Highlands of Kenya surrounding our city. We could go miles in the shadow of the green forests, then suddenly out in the open, passing a savanna. Sometimes I could vaguely smell the pleasant scent of eucalyptus plants, and sometimes see valleys stretching below us. Not far from Nairobi the capital, which was called ‘a place of cool waters’ in the old days, patches of tea plantation rolled out like carpet.

Namalu, Uganda. That was our destination, at least three days driving from Nairobi, where we started. It was my first time going on a long trip, and this particular one was no picnic.

“I wonder if it’s gonna be there, Mzee(2,” Ali, Aboo’s assistant, suddenly spoke, “they promised one would meet us halfway between Namalu and the border.” Aboo just nodded slightly, then, sensing my confusion, he explained, “I asked for a tractor to accompany us, in case we get stuck in the mud or something. It’s in the contract.” I nodded, then again looked out to enjoy the view. But then a thought crossed my mind so I asked,

“Aboo, how bad is the journey in Uganda?”

“You mean besides the road blocks, the thick and sticky mud and puddles in the roads, the bandits, and the landmines? Well, there’s always civil war, you know.”

I took a deep breath. Civil war. Yes, for it was 1981, and the civil war was the reason we headed out there; to deliver the aviation fuel Uganda needed for relief flights by an aid agency helping the refugees of war.

Aboo swerved a little to avoid a puddle and, with his eyes still on the road, asked,

“Have you been saying du’a, Aboo(3?”

“Um .... nnno, Aboo. Which du’a?”

“We could sure use ayatul kursi right now.”

I didn’t say anything, but started reciting the ayatul kursi in my heart. A flock of bright, pink flamingos flew in the sky. They were headed south from Lake Nakuru. I also caught a glimpse of a hippo, a bit further among the woods on the side of the road. There were quite a number of soda lakes around this region, a haven for hippos and many kinds of birds, especially flamingos, making it a paradise for birdwatchers. I turned my head left to look at Ali, and noticed that his lips were moving slightly. He, too, was saying du’as.

After we passed Nakuru, I got drowsy from looking out, and from reciting more than a hundred of ayatul kursis. When we finally stopped for lunch and salah, I asked Aboo, “Shouldn’t we recite something longer later?”

“Like what? What do you have in mind?”

“Well, how about Yaseen?” I say, shrugging my shoulder a bit.

Yaseen was about the longest surah I’d memorized. It surely would keep me awake. A warm smile came on my father’s face.

“It’s good, but for me ayatul kursi will do.”

“Why?” Surely Aboo knew Yaseen by heart, too. And the longer the surah, should be the better, right?

Aboo smiled and said, “Because the ayah says, ‘All things in the heavens and on earth belong to Him’, and that means us included. On the road, that is what we always have to bear in mind, in order to give up our lives to Him and Him only. We can’t really rely on people, you know. But we can always rely on Allah, for He is always there, never sleeps, never feels tired, and like the ayah also says, knows everything about everything. ‘He’s the ruler of heavens and earth’, ain’t He? So, we should keep reciting the ayah to keep ourselves tawakkal. If I should recite a long surah like Yaseen, I’d probably concentrate more on the surah, what the next ayah will be, instead of trusting Him wholeheartedly.”

Just then, we were stopped by a roadblock. Aboo and Ali went down to meet the policemen. I panicked, and found myself reciting the ayatul kursi furiously. I was scared we were going to meet some problems. Police corruption was not a strange thing, either in Kenya or Uganda, and I knew we had no money. But it was shameful for a big teenager like me to cry, so, scared as I was, I resorted to the ayah kursi. Fortunately, they soon came back, and not long after we resumed the journey.

I realized then and there, how powerless I was. If police and corruption could scare me that much, I couldn’t imagine how much the landmines, robbers, or battles would affect me. I decided to keep reciting the ayatul kursi, and see how tawakkal I could get.

Two days later, we passed the border. My heart throbbed from the sensation. Here I come, Uganda, the Pearl of Africa! People had been telling me how beautiful Uganda was, even more beautiful, though a bit less developed because of the war, than Kenya. Now, I could see it for myself.

Cool, invigorating breeze welcomed us through the window, for it was right after Shubuh time. On my right side, Mount Elgon, an extinct volcano, towered 4000 m above us. With the help of the still rising sun, I could see caves doting its slopes. I had heard that elephants often went there, feeding on the salt found in the caves, which make Mt Elgon the only place in the world where elephants would go underground. But I guess it was too early for the day, for I could see no elephant in sight.

Despite of the magnificent view, I could feel the tension rising. There were robbers in Kenya, but there were many more in Uganda. And we would continue to meet roadblocks, and the rain and puddles were so much worse, that we started needing the tractor, badly. We were also worried we might encounter a fight between the two warring groups. But for me, the scariest of all was the landmines. Every time we passed a mined area, Aboo would drive very quickly, many times passed the speed limit. His theory was, if we drove quickly enough, even if we went over a mine, we could escape the explosion. But with drums of kerosene loaded on our truck, it was a fat chance. The blast might catch on the kerosene, or, we might even get an accident from driving too fast, and get blown up anyway.

All the dangers we had were so real, and still no tractor in sight, I did feel myself closer to God. Even the lush, rich green forest enshrouding us as we went around Mt Elgon, as beautiful as I had imagined, ceased to comfort me. One thing always followed directly after another that I found myself continuously reciting the ayah kursi, each time getting more sincere than before.

Finally, we were only a few miles from Namalu, our destination. Right after I spotted a housing compound on Namalu suburb, Ali shouted, “There it is!! The tractor!” Sure enough, we saw a tractor going behind us.

“Well, what do you know, right in time...,” I said cynically.

“At least we have something,” Aboo calmly said.

“Yeah, now we’re saved!” Ali exclaimed, giving his own thigh a slap of joy.

As soon as Ali said the word ‘saved’, KERR-SPLASH! Down went the truck into a deep puddle. Aboo put on the gas, but the truck didn’t budge. Ali got out to fetch the tractor to pull us out. Hours passed, with no improvement. Aboo then decided, “There’s no other way. We have to roll the drums one by one all the way to Namalu.”

And there we were. Stranded, with a distance of only about five to ten minutes driving to our destination. But we couldn’t drive there, so we walked, rolling the drums one by one, all the way. They were all such huge drums, that it took all three of us plus the tractor driver to get each one out. And only after all the drums had been hauled to the ground, could the tractor pull the truck out. Even then, it was no easy task. The deep puddle made the truck keep slipping and swaying, many times almost roll to the ground. I had never had one day half as tiring as that particular day, and I could swear neither had Aboo nor Ali.

That night, after prayer when we lay down in bed, relieved but exhausted, I told Aboo, “I guess that’s the irony of life. With all the danger we faced along the way, we were okay. And just as we almost arrived, calamity caught us unawares.”

Aboo looked straight at me, his face sober, and said, “Istighfar, Aboo. You want to know the reason we got stuck? Because we relied on people and things. Remember along the way, we kept reciting the ayatul kursi? We were relying on Allah for help, so Allah helped us. But then, just because we saw the tractor, we forgot Allah and started relying on the tractor instead. And the tractor couldn’t pull us out! Even without the drums it was difficult. That was actually Allah’s way of showing us, what’s the price of relying on something other than He, the Greatest. Never, ever, fail to rely on Allah, and only Allah. To do otherwise will always be futile. Let that be a lesson for you, Aboo.”

It was indeed a lesson, and wallahi, did we learn it the hard way....

(1 Aboo [‘AA-bow] = Father, in Somali, from Arabic Abu.

(2 Mzee = an address of respect in Swahili (a common language in Kenya and the neighbouring countries), more or less like ‘Sheikh’ in Arabic, or probably ‘Sir’ in English.

(3 Aboo = though literally means father, in East African countries, as well as South Asian and middle eastern countries, it is also used by a father to address his son/daughter, as a term of endearment.

by: Desti J Basuki

ACTIVE AND PASSIVE VOICE

Kalimat Aktif dan Kalimat Pasif

Kata kerja transitif mempunyai dua voice (ragam gramatikal), aktif dan pasif.

1) Bentuk aktif adalah orang, binatang, atau benda yang ditunjukkan oleh subjek dikatakan

melakukan sesuatu pada yang lain.

Contoh: Karim killed a tiger. Karim membunuh seekor harimau

2) Bentuk pasif adalah orang, binatang atau benda dikatakan menderita sesuatu dari sesuatu yang lain.

Contoh: A tiger was killed by Karim. Seekor harimau dibunuh oleh Karim

Bentuk pasif :

To Be + Past Participle

Aturan-aturan :

a) Kata kerja transitif tidak digunakan dalam bentuk pasif, kecuali kalau kata kerja itu menggunakan cognate object dalam bentuk aktif.

Aktif : She sang a fine song. Ia menyanyikan sebuah nyanyian yang merdu

Pasif : A fine song was sung by her. Sebuah nyanyian yang merdu dinyanyikan olehnya

b) Bilamana kalimat diubah dari bentuk aktif ke pasif, objek untuk kata kerja aktif menjadi subjek untuk kalimat kerja pasif.

objek untuk kata kerja aktif :

Aktif: Linda can make tarts. Linda dapat membuat kue tart

Subjek untuk kata kerja pasif :

Pasif: Tarts can be made by Linda

c) Retained object (objek yang tetap dipakai/dipertahankan dalam pasif)

Dua buah objek dalam kalimat aktif, ketika diubah menjadi kalimat pasif, masih tetap ada sebuah objek dipertahankan, objek ini dinamakan retained object. Objek ini mungkin objek tak langsung dari kata kerja aktif atau objek langsung dari kata kerja aktif.

Objek tak langsung dari kata kerja aktif

Kata Kerja aktif Kata kerja pasif

We gave him a prize A prize was given him by us

Objek langsung dari kata kerja aktif

Kata Kerja aktif Kata kerja pasif

We gave him a prize He was given a prize by us

Berikut contoh-contoh kalimat aktif yang dirubah menjadi kalimat pasif dalam bentuk tenses :

1) Simple present

Aktif

John bites Mary

John doesn’t bite Mary

Does John bite Mary?

What does John do?

Who bites Mary?

Who does John bite?



Pasif

Mary is bitten by John

Mary isn’t bitten by John

Is Mary bitten by John?

What is done by John?

Who is Mary bitten by?

Who is bitten by John?

2) Simple continuous

Aktif

John is biting Mary

John isn’t biting Mary

Is John biting Mary?

What is John doing?

Who is biting Mary?

Who is John biting?



Pasif

Mary is being bitten by John

Mary isn’t being bitten by John

Is Mary being bitten by John?

What is being done by John?

Who is Mary being bitten by?

Who is being bitten by John?

3) Present perfect

Aktif

John has bitten Mary

John hasn’t bitten Mary

Has John bitten Mary?

What has John done?

Who has bitten Mary?

Who has John bitten?



Pasif

Mary has been bitten by John

Mary hasn’t been bitten by John

Has Mary been bitten by John?

What has been done by John?

Who has Mary been bitten by?

Who has been bitten by John?

4) Present perfect continuous

Aktif

John has been biting Mary

John hasn’t been biting Mary

Has John been biting Mary?

What has John been doing?

Who has been biting Mary?

Who has John been biting?



Pasif

Mary has been being bitten by John

Mary hasn’t been being bitten by John

Has Mary been being bitten by John?

What has been being done by John?

Who has Mary been being bitten by?

Who has been being bitten by John?

5) Simple past

Aktif

John bit Mary

John didn’t bite Mary

Did John bite Mary?

What did John do?

Who bit Mary?

Who did John bite?


Pasif

Mary was bitten by John

Mary wasn’t bitten by John

Was Mary bitten by John?

What was done by John?

Who was Mary bitten by?

Who was bitten by John?

6) Past continuous

Aktif

John was biting Mary

John wasn’t biting Mary

Was John biting Mary?

What was John doing?

Who was biting Mary?

Who was John biting?



Pasif

Mary was being bitten by John

Mary wasn’t being bitten by John

Was Mary being bitten by John?

What was being done by John?

Who was Mary being bitten by?

Who was being bitten by John?

7) Past perfect

Aktif

John had bitten Mary

John hadn’t bitten Mary

Had John bitten Mary?

What had John done?

Who had bitten Mary?

Who had John bitten?



Pasif

Mary had been bitten by John

Mary hadn’t been bitten by John

Had Mary been bitten by John?

What had been done by John?

Who had Mary been bitten by?

Who had been bitten by John?

8) Past perfect continuous

Aktif

John had been biting Mary

John hadn’t been biting Mary

Had John been biting Mary?

What had John been doing?

Who had been biting Mary?

Who had John been biting?



Pasif

Mary had been being bitten by John

Mary hadn’t been being bitten by John

Had Mary been being bitten by John?

What had been being done by John?

Who had Mary been being bitten by?

Who had been being bitten by John?

9) Future

Aktif

John will bite Mary

John won’t bite Mary

Will John bite Mary?

What will John do?

Who will bite Mary?

Who will John bite?



Pasif

Mary will be bitten by John

Mary won’t be bitten by John

Will Mary be bitten by John?

What will be done by John?

Who will Mary be bitten by?

Who will be bitten by John?

10) Future continuous

Aktif

John will be biting Mary

John won’t be biting Mary

Will John be biting Mary?

What will John be doing?

Who will be biting Mary?

Who will John be biting?



Pasif

Mary will be being bitten by John

Mary won’t be being bitten by John

Will Mary be being bitten by John?

What will be being done by John?

Who will Mary be being bitten by?

Who will be being bitten by John?

11) Future perfect

Aktif

John will have bitten Mary

John won’t have bitten Mary

Will John have bitten Mary?

What will John have done?

Who will have bitten Mary?

Who will John have bitten?



Pasif

Mary will have been bitten by John

Mary won’t have been bitten by John

Will Mary have been bitten by John?

What will have been done by John?

Who will Mary have been bitten by?

Who will have been bitten by John?

12) Future perfect continuous

Aktif

John will have been biting Mary

John won’t have been biting Mary

Will John have been biting Mary?

What will John have been doing?

Who will have been biting Mary?

Who will John have been biting?



Pasif

Mary will have been being bitten by John

Mary won’t have been being bitten by John

Will Mary have been being bitten by John?

What will have been being done by John?

Who will Mary have been being bitten by?

Who will have been being bitten by John?

Kata-kata kerja transitif kadang-kadang mempunyai arti pasif walaupun bentuk kalimatnya adalah aktif :

a) Dengan komplemen

Sugar tastes sweet (pasif: sugar is sweet when it is tasted). Gula manis rasanya (gula manis bila

dirasakan)

b) Tanpa komplemen

The books is printing (pasif: the book is being printed). Buku itu sedang dicetak

The cows are milking (pasif: the cows are being milked). Sapi-sapi itu sedang diperah

ADVERBIAL CLAUSE

Adverbial Clause is a Clause (clause) which functions as an adverb, which describes a verb. Adverbial Clause usually classified based on "the meaning / intent" of the conjunction (conjunctive that preceded it). The types of adverbial Clause include:

1. Clause of Time Clause which shows the time. Usually made by using conjunction (conjunctive) as after, before, no sooner, while, axles, etc..
Example:
* Shut the door before you go out.
* You begin May Pls (ever) you are ready.
* While he was walking home, he saw an accident.
* By the time I arrive, she will from have left.
* No sooner she ENTERED Than Had he Gave an order.

2. Clause of Place That show where clause. Usually made by using such conjunction Nowhere, nowhere, anywhere, Wherever, etc..
Example:
* They sat down Wherever They Could find empty seats
* The guard Stood Nowhere he was positioned.
* Where there is a will, there is a way.
* Where there is poverty, there We find discontent and unrest.
* Go Nowhere you like.

3. Clause of Contrast (or Concession) Clause which shows the contradiction between the two incidents or events that are related. Usually made by using conjunction (conjunctive) as although, though, even though, whereas, even if, in spite of, as the time, etc..
Example:
* As the time you were the resource persons sleeping, We Were working hard.
* Mary wanted to stop, whereas I wanted to go on.
* Although it is late, We'll stay a little longer.
* He is very friendly, even if he is a clever student.

4. Clause of Manner Clause which shows the cars how a job is done or event occurs. Usually made by using conjunction (conjunctive) such as, how, like, in that, etc..
Example:
* He did as I toll uterus.
* You May finish it how you like.
* May They beat us again, like They did in 1978.

5. Clause of Purpose and Result Clause which shows the relationship intent / objectives and outcomes. Usually made by using conjunctions such as (in order) that, so that, in the hope that, to the end that, lest, in case, etc..
Example:
* They Went to the movie early (in order) to find the best seats.
* She Bought a book so (that) Could she learn Bahasa
* He is saving his money so he he That May take a long vacation.
* I am working night and day in the Hope that I cans finish this book soon.

6. Clause of Cause and Effect Clause which shows the relationship of cause and effect. There are several patterns to form this kind Clause. Take a good look.
Example:
* Ryan ran so fast That he broke the previous speed record.
* It was so cold yesterday That I Did not Want To swim.
Example:
* It was a hot day Such That We decided to stay Indoors. OR It was so hot a day That We decided to stay Indoors.
* It was Such an interesting book That he couldn't put it down. OR It was so interesting a book That he couldn't put it down.
Example:
* She has Such exceptional Abilities That everyone is jealous of her.
* They are Such beautiful pictures Want That everybody will of one.
* Perry has Had Such bad luck That he's decided not to Gamble.
* This Is Such That Difficult homework I will of never finish it. In addition, to reveal the relationship of cause and effect (cause and effect) can be used in other patterns, namely:

1. Using the Preposition (preposition) like Because of, due to, due to the fact that, etc. Example: * Because of the cold weather, We stayed home. (We stayed home Because of the cold weather)
* Due to the cold weather, We stayed home. (We stayed home due to the cold weather)
* Due to the fact That the weather was cold, We stayed home. (We stayed home due to the fact That the weather was cold)

2. Using conjunctions (conjunction) as Because, since, now, that, as, as long as, inasmuch as
Example:
* Because he was sleepy, he Went to bed.
* Since he's not Interested in classical music, he decided not to go to the concert.
* As she Had nothing in particular to do, she Called up a friend and asked her if she wanted to take in a movie.
* Inasmuch as the two government leaders Could not reach an agreement, the possibilities for peace are still remote.

3. Using transition words like therefore, consequently. Example:
* She failed the test Because he Did not study.
* Alex Did not study. Therefore, he failed the test.
* Alex Did not study. Consequently, he failed the test.